In the midst of December 2016, I was in Bahrain training local soldiers in a sandy, blisteringly hot military base. It was satisfying being able to use my experience from the Royal Marines to help develop and teach these enthusiastic soldiers. At the time I was informed that I had just received promotion to sergeant and I felt on top of the world. Within two weeks, I was paralyzed from the chest down from an accident in a dune buggy in the desert. I went from the peak of my military career to becoming a T4 complete paraplegic.
In the coming months, I went through my initial rehab programme at Oswestry Orthopaedic Hospital in the UK. I felt like I accepted my life changing injury early on and decided to just get on with things as best I could. This, however, was not the case. It is three years on now and I have started to realise that perhaps I haven’t fully gotten to terms with everything still. It feels like I have gone from one extreme to the opposite.
But, I have been focusing all of my energy on moving forwards in life. There have been many, many stressors to negotiate; as there are for everyone in life, especially people trying to adjust to living with SCI. As time moves on, the stresses that I am having to deal with are very slowly becoming less and less. Some of the things I felt were impossible at the beginning have become possible and getting used to bowel and bladder routines and managing autonomic dysreflexia have got a little bit easier.
One of the next biggest obstacles for me to conquer is getting medically discharged from the military. In the time since being injured I have done my best to be as productive as possible. I decided to re-skill into IT as it is something that I don’t mind doing and the pace of technology developing is something that I appreciate and find interesting. Becoming a commando was my boyhood dream but I have started to discover that fulfilment in life can be achieved in multiple ways for each person. I think that for many people, knowing a specific subject extremely well and priding yourself in being excellent within your chosen discipline can bring fulfilment regardless of what job you do.
In the past year of 2019 I managed to achieve two IT certifications and have worked part time in an IT company learning ‘on the job’. I have found that the best way for me to move forward mentally has been to actually take action and get out there and do things, and not to fear failure as a result of trying.
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